Good bye 2010

This year had me unwrapped... Bumped into the hardest decisions one has to make, Stepped up infront of my biggest fears (and actions one get to criticize in others); Learned that no matter how hard you try to hide from others who you are-what you feel- what you like, is the most stupid thing one do, u give up enjoying and everybody sees the truth underlaid the crap u use to cover it... There's no one better (therefore worse) than you, everyone is different. Forgiveness, if you dont forget yourself u cant deal with anyone, period.
"what time is it? now, who am i? this moment" has been the thing i keep telling myself whenever i get mind-shitted...
A not-so-easy-quite-enjoyed-process which included a trip to my inner self, started meditation (though i havent gone since school was over) funny how we tend to question-mock-judge beliefs, when you realize that there is definitely things you CANT (as in EVER) control, you are left speechless... because no words could ever explain what you get to witness, it may sound(ok read) a tad bit confusing... but believe me i believe... i believe there is only one thing that can (and does) make it all better...and its love... mainly to one-self and theeeen you can deal with the rest...
The hardest thing here is to dont forget... its so easy to go back to the chaotic-self-destructive-obsessive-compulsive behavior... but i guess thats where u have to wok on the 'spark'(satc y'all)... By the way i left my heart in NY...